Christmas is Coming!

Ok, I know it's still a little "early" for Christmas - according to my hubby at least - but I always get ready for it the weekend after Thanksgiving. So my tree is up, some presents are wrapped, and almost all presents are bought though I need to pick a few little things up still and do one more amazon order. Yes, that's my tree to the right. It's a little thing with a big gaudy light-up star on top. Not attractive, but for some reason I love it.

I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving. Ours was quiet, but nice. Just 5 of us at my little apartment's dining room table. Then yesterday we went to my mom's house to put up her tree and help her decorate - plus we got to play with Evan. Apparently I've gotten the "bonus" of playing with Evan...his cold. Oh well! He's worth it!

Merry Early Christmas to Me!

That's right girls - I got my new laptop today!!! Wooohooo!!! I was having a not-so-great day and almost had to work on Friday too, but I got out of that and came home to my new beloved computer. Here's a pic of me tired from work, but happy with my present. Yes this photo is taken with the new laptop!



So here I am....installing programs and waiting for game updates to download (so far it's been over 2 hours of updates for one game) and getting ready for Turkey Day! Unfortunately none of my TTC girlies are online to chat...and this is the first night in months and months that my mouse won't act up. Oh well!

Have a very Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Here We Go Again!

So today is CD1. I start 150mg Clomid on Monday and have my first follie scan on Dec 2nd. Here's to a very Merry Christmas this year. I hope I get my little miracle.

Changes

You may have noticed that the name of this blog has changed. If you had stalked it closely in the past 24 hours, you'd also have noticed that it's changed twice! Bloggity Doo just wasn't doing it for me, and it was always more of a place marker until I decided on a better name, which I now have. "Steady as it comes" is a line in a song, and a line I say to myself everytime I'm having a shitty day. Since infertility is full of shitty days, it seemed to fit.

Anyway, an update on the ever lovely infertility...I'm still infertile. Lol. Today is 14 days post-provera with no AF, so I called the RE and went in for blood work. Not an hour later did the cramps and spotting start. Tonight or tomorrow will make CD1, but I am still supposed to go in at 7:45 tomorrow morning for an ultrasound and to figure out what was going on. I might not end up needing the ultrasound since AF finally came at the very last minute, but I will get my Rx for 150mg Clomid. At the moment it's only 5 days worth, but I'm going to ask her about the 10 day thing that she mentioned last time. I just want to give this the very best chance of working.

My friend had an idea for me today. She suggested having the doctor tell me I would never have kids because my body obviously refuses to do what it's told. Who knows? Might be worth a shot!

20 days later

Since it was determined that Betty wasn't going to grow any bigger than 13mm, and that I was not going to ovulate, it's been 20 days. I've taken my 10 days of Provera. I've waited my 10 days for AF. I've POAS and gotten a BFN.

My conclusion is this:



Yep. That's my body. Stubborn as a mule. I can't even force AF to come. Oh well.

I've been tagged...

...and thankfully not by that rancid smelling body spray!

Answer the following questions with single word responses. Then pass on the award to 7 other bloggers:
1. Where is your cell phone? purse
2. Where is your significant other? computer
3. Your hair color? brownish
4. Your mother? loving
5. Your father? funny
6. Your favorite thing? HoundDog
7. Your dream last night? college
8. Your dream/goal? babies!
9. The room you’re in? living
10. Your hobby? musicreadingsewing ;)
11. Your fear? barrenness
12. Where do you want to be in six years? home
13. Where were you last night? bed
14. What you’re not? petite
15. One of your wish list items? house
16. Where you grew up? maryland
17. The last thing you did? yoga
18. What are you wearing? clothing
19. Your T.V.? eh.
20. Your pet? bryan?
21. Your computer? dying
22. Your mood? hungry
23. Missing someone? always
24. Your car? civic
25. Something you’re not wearing? bra
26. Favorite store? target
27. Your Summer? meh.
28. Love someone? naturally
29. Your favorite color? blue
30. When is the last time you laughed? seven
31. Last time you cried? friday

Anyone not having done this yet - consider yourself tagged. And if you don't do it, I will come after you with the rancid smelling Tag!

Wow. Talk about roller coaster.

So in the almost 2 weeks since my last post, alot has happened - and not on the TTC front!

First, my aunt contracted Legionnaires disease while in Italy shortly before flying home. By the time she got home, she could barely walk and was extremely confused, so off to the ER she and my uncle went. A mixture of three antibiotics, two weeks in ICU on a ventilator and a whole lotta prayers later, she was moved to her own room and has kicked the infection. Now comes the long road to recovery. She can barely get out of bed without huffing and puffing, and needs physical therapy to get her moving again, but she'll make a full recovery. Thank you to all of my friends who prayed for her. I can't even begin to tell you what that means to me.

Second, at work we had a compliance audit which stressed me out for months prior. It turned out fine. I didn't realize until the day before the audit just how stressed out I was. DH asked me to grab his cell phone for him and I blew up and yelled for everything under the sun. Then I sobbed. He just sat there looking at me like 'wtf is going on here?' Poor guy. At least he's quick to understand! As soon as the sobbing stopped, things were fine and dandy again and we watched the Ravens win! Woohoo!



And last, but definitely not least, we were supposed to be in Arkansas this weekend for DH's grandmother's 80th birthday, which is tomorrow. We were all set to take off this morning at 7:30. Around 8:30 last night, we get a call from DH's mother that Grandma had fallen and they were on their way to the hospital since she probably broke her hip. "Don't come" is what his mother said to him. We discussed it and waited for more news on how Grandma was doing and what the damage actually was. She did in fact break her hip and as I'm typing this, she is in surgery having a total hip replacement. We decided to postpone our trip until she either needed some help around the house or when she was feeling better and up to visitors. We didn't want to be in the way. A few prayers for her would be very much appreciated that she makes a speedy recovery. She was a very active woman and walked a mile or more on her treadmill every morning. I'd love for her to get back to that.

On the TTC front, I have finished my Provera and am waiting for AF to arrive. She's taking her sweet time. I have absolutely no signs of her arrival at the moment. I'm sure she'll wait until the last possible minute to show up and make me think I might have a chance to be pregnant!